#MeToo I’m Angry, Disappointed, and Hopeful


Me tooI was going to tweet my top 10 #metoo list, as in the first 10 #metoo incidents I experienced (the ones I could remember). I wrote them out on a piece of paper, it took less than 5 minutes. But then I thought, why? I’m not famous. Nobody is going to listen to me and what is the point of sharing my vulnerability with the world? Is it going to change anything? Does anybody care? Fuck all the lurkers that will read it and not even acknowledge my tweets.

Then I got angry. Angry because it took me less than 5 minutes to come up with 10 incidents. Angry that I had to attend a self-defense workshop in college to avoid getting raped instead of my co-ed’s having to attend a workshop on how not to rape.

Angry that one of the top reasons I chose the university I did was because it had a lower rate of rapes on campus than the other universities I was considering. How many of my guy friends had to think about that when choosing which college to go to?!

Angry because women of color and white women who are not famous have been saying #metoo for years and NOTHING has changed!

Angry because the majority of my male friends are either being defensive or silent about the whole #metoo thing. Dudes, it’s not that hard to say, I’m sorry that happened to you.

Angry because we have a president who has been accused of sexual assault, denies it, and who said, “grab em by the pussy”.

Back in October when the whole #metoo thing started trending I posted a rant on Facebook and noticed the few men friends who left comments reacted in the following ways:

1. blaming trump, 2. blaming trump women voters, 3. saying women who are compliant are part of the problem.

Those comments sent me spiraling down a path of huge disappointment in my guy friends, the good guys that didn’t get-it-at-all, they didn’t get what I was trying to express, they didn’t get how upsetting and triggering these #metoo stories were for so many us women (and men who have been abused). I was sad, I posted a comment letting them know I was disappointed.

And then in the sea of almost every post on my timeline being another woman’s traumatic and triggering #metoo story, one of my guy friends posted this:

To my friends who have posted #metoo and all those who carry the scars from being sexually harassed, sexually violated/assaulted, you have my support. There’s been so many stories told in recent days that have caused many to re-live events of the past. There’s a lot of pain and suffering out there right now – we all have a responsibility to act against predatory behavior.

I read that and I cried. I felt a huge sense of relief. I was amazed how having just one guy acknowledge what I was going through made me feel seen and heard. I cried some more. Thank you to that one guy, you know who you are. The rest of you, I encourage you to copy/paste that statement or write your own. You have no idea how healing it can be to one of your women friends, if you genuinely mean it.

The #metoo movement has been an emotional roller coaster for me. I cycle between anger, disappointment, rage, and hope. I am hopeful that we have reached a tipping point. I am hopeful because at least some of the men who are predators are now facing consequences. I am hopeful that men are now aware of what the reality of women is (all women including poor women, transwomen, and women of color!). I am hopeful that we will soon be able to have a dialog about this and maybe advance as a society.

I leave you with this SNL skit that really resonated with me.

4 thoughts on “#MeToo I’m Angry, Disappointed, and Hopeful

  1. Suzanna Stinnett

    Sally, thank you as always for being one of the few people who express their full feelings at important times for our culture. Thank you for carrying your whole self forward in such full-human ways. I have all those feelings too, and hope rises to the top as the conversation continues. I’m absolutely depleted in terms of watching another famous person’s identity flailing across the screens. I’m worn out emotionally from hearing the stories. Even though I want it to be done, I am positive that we are going somewhere as we wade through this sewer. Even though I know there are people climbing on board for personal gain, I don’t care, because every voice has got to have a way to come out. It’s just the price of this process.

    What I hope we are seeing, with all the women coming forward to participate in elections, all the women telling their stories, incredible support places like Pantsuit Nation, is the pendulum swinging like it hasn’t done in 3000 years. I’m ready for women to be in charge. All women aren’t necessarily fit for leadership and of course women can be corrupt, but we have to have more dimension than men have brought as they dominated the world. I think the rage, not just about MeToo but about everything patriarchal, is fueling our ability to be our full selves for the world. Of course I want balance, but this culture and many other cultures need a serious cleaning out. Women must lead.

    I’m not optimistic that men today can understand what’s happening. I think there’s a kind of illness that shows up as mental blindness and mental deafness, which may not be curable. They may never understand. But boys can be taught something different and that’s the future. Boys and girls must be taught mutual respect.

    At this point, I find I don’t care that much whether men understand or not. This issue is much bigger than our lives at this moment. It’s what we are doing for the future, and I see it as essential. Male cultural dominance has set us up to fail the human race. That’s how big this is, to my mind.

    And to the men who DO understand: Your voices in this conversation are extremely important. Don’t worry about who doesn’t get it. Just keep carrying the truth forward.

    1. Sally_K Post author

      Thank you for taking the time to read and comment. Too sleepy to write anything else at the moment but wanted to thank you! <3

  2. Roger Amd

    “Male cultural dominance has set us up to fail the human race.”
    Do you have any sourced studies or factual data to back this up or are you just relying on emotion? I think the biggest threat to our society is toxic feminism and the constant blaming of men. If you dare, check out some real stats and facts:

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